Supercalfrag...stuff it

Well it's has been a while. What a year of ups and downs thus far.
Work has been hard but amazing, tiring but challenging and i suspect i may have grown up a fair bit. I am now 21 years old which is actually pretty ok. My birthday rocked which was a relief and blessing and lovely thing.

Went to Senegal - didn't want to come back. Spent my time there truly being myself, realised what that was actually like.

Realising how truly awful i am at keeping in touch with people i once had meaningful relationships with, and noticing how few meaningful relationships i have left.

Parents are moving to Africa in the summer, safety net being yanked out but not a bad thing.

Feeling happy but subdued, hence lack of proper eloquent sentences. i chose to express through statements.

Teaching about sex, abstinence, self esteem and identity at the moment. Intimacy comes from transparency which comes from vulnerability which comes from trust which comes from communication which is the basis of a healthy relationship. How the heck am i supposed to do all that? With time, God and a very understanding partner i suppose. Goodness me i'm supposed to be the teacher and i'm struggling myself, although i suppose that's my biggest resource as well as thorn in my side. La di da...

You know when you feel detached from your body, my mind is numb and my body's on auto pilot...

Bring on a holiday at Easter.

Til then

Ciao
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